More Loving...

So here's an update. I didn't get to see my luffie yesterday because the poor baby was working all day. I really don't like it when he does that but he's too nice to say no. *sigh* He sent me an email the morning after which was really cute but it also said he got talked into working friday because the guy who was taking his shift backed out. -.- I really hate the people he works with. They use him and don't care.

Sometimes he says things that make my heart ache because it's so hard to be completely honest with my feelings. Hell i can't do that anyway unless we meet in person. I show how i feel about some with body language better than words can express. But how do you tell that to someone. How do you tell anything to someone.

I assume he wants to be my boyfriend and the only thing holding him back is the 4000 miles. That makes me a little uneasy because I love him to death but that kind of relationship would ruin what we have. I'm not very plesant in that context. It's a shame really. If it did happen I would try to make the best of it but I can't really predict how I will act. I hate being neglected and with him having such a busy life it's not the best thing for us to be dating like that. I don't know how to tell him that though because I know how he hangs onto me and i'd feel really bad if i hurt him because of it.

Well not like it's going to happen anytime soon so I shouldn't worry about it I guess.