Keep Rollin

Manchmal denk ich dass alle Leute um mich herum den Verstand verloren haben. Na es stimmt vielleicht nicht aber es kommt mir ernsthaft manchmal so vor. Today on public transport this woman was sitting next to me and she was folding these papyrus sticks. Okay, that alone is weird but I just finished reading my book and was watching her and she starts telling me how it's for Palm Sunday and gives me this crucifix made of papyrus. I accepted it and then she had to get off but I was like o_O weird person...

Reminds me of this time when these two elderly ladies came at me out of the blue and asked me if I believe in god and then started telling me how the world was so screwed up with the decline of religion and I just thought OMFG you have got to be kidding me. If anything then religion is clining to the last shred of "hope" it can. Seriously, there haven't been so many assholes trying to convert people since the DarkAges. In fact it's almost like we are in the DarkAges. With all this "OMG INPENDANT WOMEN" shit and "omg you can't do that! It's immoral!"

Red Days & Rant

So I figured out why I was having trouble sleeping the other night... well it has to do with the fact that I was getting my dreaded Red Days and I can't help put ponder what it would be like to go in heat instead. I mean i've seen animals in heat and they don't seem to think its so bad. Well its not bad if they manage to find a mate who will fuck their brains out. If not well they don't stay in heat forever and they usually do find a mate.

Now if humans had that I think the world would be a better place. None of this "abstinant till marriage" crap they're spouting like yesterdays oatmeal. I mean really, people would be a lot happier if they could fuck like bunnies at some point during the year and not tie some celestial signifigance to it. Not like now where every damn woman on the fucking earth including me has to suffer through 3-gadknowshowmanydamn days of pain and humiliation. Isn't it bad enough we get degraded in every which way possible?

I am a staunch feminazi (no not a bad nazi you ignorant fuck). I believe in female supremacy. FRAUEN AN DIE MACHT! I will probably explain what I mean and why I am like this in a later post, maybe when i'm crankier.

Anyway back to pain and humiliation. PAIN. OMFG. If you've never had a bad period you can count yourself lucky because seriously I feel like a walking pain factory. If it's not being horny as heck it's being sick to your stomach (sometimes simultaneausly which is highly unplesant to watch aswell as participate in). The horny part only bothers me when its while im in public. Actually both horny and sick bother me when im in public. Sick because if I faint someone will put me in a hospital and stab me with needles which i hate and horny because well i'm not much of an exhibitionist.

On to humiliation. If your a woman I guess you know what it's like to wake up with bloody underwear and you probably know what its like to walk around with bloody underwear (if your period comes during the day). Well I wonder if you know what its like when you have WHITE PANTS ON. Not that this happened to me recently but it did happen a few years ago. There was also this incident a while before that where i wore the same pants and it started to rain that day long story short I got drenched. I usually keep track of my red days but I'm quite irregular (this month was over a week off) so I usually get surprised by it. EVIL VINDICTIVE BIOLOGICAL PROCESS. Thank space I was home yesterday and in bed otherwise I would have gotten it during the shit course in the morning. See? Skipping is good for you. Anyway, I woke up kinda sick, tossed and turned (it was daylight at this time and it's hard to fall back asleep when its daylight) and tried to get back to sleep. Which caused me to have a weird dream. Only part I remember was offering this washboard chest girl to give her some of my boob-fat which I did. With a needle and no sedative. Ugh gross.

Jeez this has been a long ranting post. I probably have more to say but I think i'll keep it for a later date otherwise I might run out of material to post (highly unlikely, me being crazy and all).

PS: All you women-folk out there who are having your Red-Days right now with me I feel with you and for you! Frauen halten zusammen. Peace.

So ich bin wach...

Ja. Ich darf heute auf den Rauchfangkehrer warten. How nice. But it gets me out of the shitty morning thing. I don't think i've had decent REM sleep in over a week. Well easter holidays are coming up next week so I should get off then. I think the shitty course ends on the 3rd. But I'll have to check it with the people. I wonder if i'll get paid for the entire time or just the time that i was there.

Ich denk net das sie so gemein sein wuerden es mir nit zu zahlen wenn ich nit dort war immerhin is es ihre schuld das ich nicht im kurs den ich sein wollte war. Obwohl ich wollt eigentlich gar nix tun immerhin is die schule schon schwer genug ohne solche bloedheiten. Naja werden wir mal sehen.
So now i'm sitting here rather cranky at lack of sleep and am forced to wait for this guy. I should be studying math or something for the tests tomorrow but you know what. I don't care. I'm just going to wing it and if i fail i'll do the retest. I want to pass physics though. So i'll be asking people about it today.

Damn I need a haircut. I despise long hair.

Anyway, back to this. I can guess why i find it hard to fall asleep and I should probably take pills (i'll talk about pills later) but I'm just going to wait till the break to do something. Maybe I can even ask my doctor.

It's odd being back in the thick of things after being inactive for so long I think that's why I haven't gotten used to it at all. Oh, well I'm sure it'll come to me eventually.

I'm so tired but I can't sleep.

As it says in the title I'm so tired I can't sleep. Now if it intrests you keep reading and i'll tell you why.

I don't lead a particuarly busy life but I do have my days. Like this past week so much happened yet nothing happened at all. I go to this pseudo course in the mornings where I sit around with other arbeits-suchende and we talk about how to improve our bewerbungen so that we can get a job. This is led by one or two berater. Two in my group. Okay, I get money from my government to go there so why not. Well i have to get up at 7 and sit there for 4 friggin hours and be bored out of my mind. Unlike these other nice people I don't really need a job I have parent's who provide me with moneys and such it is not required that I get a job. At least not in my current situation.

Because I go to Abendschule. Well i should go. But i find more often than not that I lack the motivation to go. Like yesterday. I should have had a physik schularbeit but i haven't been able to cram my head with any such things so I wouldn't do well and I don't really feel like doing a Nachpruefung. Not my thing. So I loll around my best friends house watching her or her boyfriend play videogames. Mh. Shadow of the Colosses was yesterday.

I think that's all for now. I shall return to my bed and attempt to sleep. Who knows I might make it and tell y'all about it when i get on again. Horray.

A New Beginning

Greetings fellow blog-reader. It seems you have stumbeled onto my blogginess. Well I hope you wont regret it if you keep reading.

I withhold any information I do not wish anyone to see and I will remain anonymous for most of this wonderous thing. As it says in my side bar thing I speak and write both English and German fluently so that's what you'll get. I don't advise reading any of this if you do not have a grasp of either language otherwise you will just get confused and I hate explaining things. This is my blog and it's where I will feel comfortable writing down my things. You don't have to read it. Noone is making you read it.

I shall keep that view to myself. I bid you a plesant stay if you so wish it.