I'm going to Michigan!

The flights are booked and paid for! I'm so excited!! I get to see Luffie finally!!! Although I do have a slight problem with it costing 1500 USD and taking 24h to get there. -.- I'm flying over Dublin and Chicago so that's three flights but what can you do when he lives in the middle of nowhere.

But it does make me wonder what to expect from him and Michigan in general while im there. I hope we will figure out what to do while im there. We should talk about it on the weekend. Mom, who is not happy about me going, is going to give me a shopping list of stuff to get and before i leave we have to go to Borders so I can stock up on mangas which I will then ship home but thats only 2 days worth of stuff to do. I'll be there from the 3rd to the 25th thats 22 days including the first day when I get in at 22:40. -.-

Also I want to go to a waterpark and thats about a day or so. I do have plans to spend as much time alone with him while I'm there and maybe even escape to somewhere else so we can really be alone but his parents are really crazy. Oh well, maybe they will lighten up when they actually meet me in person. And hopefully I'll convince them to let him come here sometime since I always encourage people to come to Europe.

I really really hope I don't get my red days while I'm there though because THAT would be really horrible. It would ruin the entire trip. Please Please let me get it before I go or after I come back. He wouldn't hold it against me but I would feel bad if that ruined our time together.

I am also somewhat worried about him wanting to have sex with me because I am not on any birthcontrol right now and he is a virgin. I guess if he mentions it I'll tell him my concerns. We will HAVE to talk about it before it happens because I refuse to just let something like that happen without clearing up things like contraception, abortion and physical problems. People I have told about us all say that he will want that but I really don't think so. Heck, even his parents think that's why I'm coming to see him. They are all wrong. Certain conditions must be met before I would engage in such behaviour and on a personal level I don't think he is capable of fulfilling them. I shouldn't worry about it because it wont happen.

More Loving...

So here's an update. I didn't get to see my luffie yesterday because the poor baby was working all day. I really don't like it when he does that but he's too nice to say no. *sigh* He sent me an email the morning after which was really cute but it also said he got talked into working friday because the guy who was taking his shift backed out. -.- I really hate the people he works with. They use him and don't care.

Sometimes he says things that make my heart ache because it's so hard to be completely honest with my feelings. Hell i can't do that anyway unless we meet in person. I show how i feel about some with body language better than words can express. But how do you tell that to someone. How do you tell anything to someone.

I assume he wants to be my boyfriend and the only thing holding him back is the 4000 miles. That makes me a little uneasy because I love him to death but that kind of relationship would ruin what we have. I'm not very plesant in that context. It's a shame really. If it did happen I would try to make the best of it but I can't really predict how I will act. I hate being neglected and with him having such a busy life it's not the best thing for us to be dating like that. I don't know how to tell him that though because I know how he hangs onto me and i'd feel really bad if i hurt him because of it.

Well not like it's going to happen anytime soon so I shouldn't worry about it I guess.